oh my god….Victor’s backstory i’m about to cry someone help
Tag: viktor nikiforov
yuuri: *absolutely smashed, pole dancing, grinding on victor, slurring drunkenly, probably spilled 2 full bottles of champagne on the floor this evening* be my coa–
victor:

more shit my mom says about YOI: Victor saying “Sure” to Yurio’s demand that, if he wins onsen on ice Victor will return to Russia with him is the “Sure, Jan” of the YOI universe

I showed my mother the first ep of YOI by her request and while I was drilling her on first impressions, she said this abt Victor: “On the ice, he’s so chill, solemn, right, but off the ice he’s like ‘My dick and I say hello! 😀 we’d both like a handshake!’” and that’s honestly my fav comment abt him ever

@ilarual AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH
do u ever cry over the fact agape was based on victor’s reaction to the banquet?? like the routine is true, pure love, one that makes you better just by feeling it, and it’s absolutely wild to me that victor created this dance based on how he felt for yuuri. after one goddamn night. victor became so incredibly infatuated with yuuri so fast; it reduced him to something innocent and yearning and desperate for this boy.
victor said himself that agape is unconditional, self-sacrificing, and uncalculating. I can’t believe he told us from the beginning that his love for yuuri was completely unconditional, that he was willing to sacrifice everything, that none of his affections are a ploy, but true, honest-to-god love.
poor yuuri for not remembering, and poor victor for not knowing he didn’t.
(I know this is old news but it still really gets me, friends)
I wonder when you’ll do a yoi meta about the physical and emotional distance Victor and Yuri try to keep and how they manage to working with each other
How about right now?
I’m assuming you mean as in, how is their coach/student/competitor/fiancé relationship gonna work, and so to talk about this, I first wanna address how they both deal with stress (as far as we’ve seen anyway).
Let’s start with Yuuri, since he’s the easiest to look at.
Yuuri’s reactions tend to be outward. I’ve discussed this in a post dedicated to Yuuri’s anxiety, but it’s relevant here: Yuuri enacts avoidance behavior.
When his anxiety starts ramping up in ep4, he automatically turns to avoiding Victor instead of discussing things.




(victor’s face lol…he goes from happy fun times to disappointed balloon animal)




(yuuri does this w/ others too but we’re specifically highlighting victuuri)
But it’s also important to keep in mind that, while Yuuri physically moves away, he internalizes his emotions. He doesn’t talk, he doesn’t address the issue, just ignores it and hopes it’ll go away.
Honestly, same.
I think Yuuri knows it’s ineffective, as most anxiety sufferers do. I think he’s at least partially conscious of what his anxiety does to him.



He knows.
So, Yuuri internalizes to the point that he misses what’s going on around him. His mind singles out one interaction, or expression, or experience, and he starts to doubt. That’s where the trouble begins.
I’m sure you remember the whole ep11-ep12 cliffhanger and miscommunication angst debacle.

(KUBO WHY U GOTTA DO US LIKE THIS)
Yuuri didn’t talk to Victor about anything. He jumped to conclusions, and hurt the both of them in the process. Yes, Victor was reinvigorated to compete again, but he wouldn’t abandon Yuuri to do it.
The unfortunate thing about anxiety is that it convinces the victim that they’re a novelty. Nobody is really interested in you, you know? You’re for now. Everyone will leave, so why chain them down?
Anyway, concluding: Yuuri avoids, internalizes, and jumps to conclusions.
How about Victor?
Yuuri is highly expressive, while Victor tends to mask. I wrote a meta about that a while ago, but the gist is that Victor has been in the public eye for so long, he doesn’t know how to differentiate the sides of himself anymore.
Where does the masking end, and Victor begin?
When Victor is upset, stressed, angry–aka, “negative” emotions, ones you don’t show to the press–he represses it and plasters a pleasant smile to his face.




At first, Yuuri’s sort of scared of it (ep4) but by the time we roll around to ep10, he just finds it insulting that Victor won’t be honest with him.

Also, I’ve only very rarely seen this discussed, but Victor seems to turn to alcohol during especially stressful points.
The first time it happens is ep2. At this moment, Yuuri has essentially just rejected him. Victor has come out to Japan to finally reunite with the man of his dreams, and that man shrieks at his presence and seemingly runs away.
Yeah.
He isn’t drunk, but we do see that sake is present.



But, of course, they do run a bar, so that could easily be a stretch.
The next time we see Victor drinking is during ep3. We see him drinking beer at one point–which, really, not a big deal, it’s only one glass and Vitya is an adult–but after Yuuri does…this

we get the information that Victor apparently spent all night drinking.

I don’t think that’s a coincidence.
Skip to the Cup of China. Victor and Yakov probably haven’t had much–if any–contact after Victor left Russia, and the first thing Yakov does is yell at him, tell him he’ll never be a real coach, and refuses the dinner invitation.





I assume Yakov to be a father figure to Victor. He certainly models his coaching after Yakov’s to some extent; it must be a huge blow to Victor for Yakov to basically tell him he wants no contact with him.
So what does Victor do?

He gets drunk.
This is the last time we see Victor hammered during the series, but he drinks alcoholic beverages pretty frequently. Of course, those may be scattered, but I think the evidence here points to the fact that when Victor is really upset, feeling absolutely alone, and needs to get his mind off things, he masks and drinks.
That’s not healthy.
Alright, so. We’ve addressed their coping mechanisms. Now let’s talk about their future relationship to each other.
Much more talented authors than me have tackled the issue. My personal favorite is a small piece by @lavenderprose you can read here. Please do, it absolutely hits the nail on the head.
I think it’ll probably be difficult for the both of them to leave work at the rink. It’s your fiancé who’s criticizing you all day, the same voice that says “please” and “thank you” at the dinner table, that whispers “I love you” before turning in at night. The same figure that holds your hand, and cuddles you when you cry.
There’s got to be some whiplash there.
There’s going to be points where they clash; they’ll miscommunicate; Victor will take it too far; Yuuri will jump to conclusions and tell Victor what Victor thinks; they’ll fight and cry and it won’t always be pretty.
They’re going to have to really step up their communication game to be able to do this. Both of them have unhealthy ways of dealing with fears and anxiety–only a few have been sampled for this post. I’m not saying the whole affair is doomed to fail, just that it won’t be easy.
I hope we get to see them going through the trials of such a complicated dynamic and growing together, as individuals and as a couple.
victor talking to people after the banquet like

Guys I am so weirdly invested in the in-canon media??? Like I wrote a post about how wild victuuri must look from the outside but I wanna talk about it again.
I started thinking about all the trashy mags that pictures of them pre-kiss must have made it into. Like, real early-days Hasetsu, where Yuuri is touring Victor around the larger neighboring cities, and of course they get paparazzi pics taken and the websites are like “Victor Nikiforov and Yuuri Katsuki spotted at [insert city name here]!” and then tons of relationship speculation.
The relationship spec is obviously partially fueled by fans; you know what hardcore fans can be like, right? There are photosets on whatever in-canon tumblr is called with victuuri making eye contact once (1) in all the pics taken and everyone’s like “yES IRL CANON”
(They’re totally right, but are you getting the early days vibe I’m throwin out?)
And then of course, I guarantee you there are photos of them taken in the hot springs themselves; somebody totally snuck a phone in the wash room just outside the springs and took a couple photos of Victor hovering way too close to be platonic.
(Whoever took the picture was long gone once it was posted; the Katsukis never really tracked the person(s) down. All they could do was more thorough checks of toiletries so the rules aren’t broken again.
Yuuri is incredibly embarrassed–not about the nudity, since he kinda grew up around it, but just that a photo was taken without his knowledge.
Victor isn’t embarrassed at all. He has this instinctual need to be constantly naked, so it’s not a big deal to him.
The whole thing was a violation of privacy, but a number of fans collectively shaming OP guaranteed it never happened again.)
The press catches pictures of them eating together, going to the rink, etc etc, before Yutopia politely but firmly kicks them out after onsen on ice.
Everything’s a little silent until Cup of China. Victor’s instagram is constantly updated over the summer, but they’ve been careful about where they go. The citizens of Hasetsu are also really protective about their town pride Yuuri and his (probably) bf, so pics from there are kept to a minimum.
That one insta photo from the triplets of Victor brushing Yuuri’s hair is added to proof comps on fansites.
I imagine everyone had a fucking field day with that one pic of a half-to-fully-naked Victor tackling Yuuri and looking all possessive. There’s so much reaching from certain sources/people to make it platonic, but NOPE, that shit’s fuckin gay.
All the photos of them hugging, leaning against each other, Victor’s incredibly smiley personality once he starts spending time with Yuuri create the best goddamn conspiracy blogs ever. People talkin about how they’re so happy that their Russian skating son/dad has someone in his life he clearly cares so much about. People cheerin on Yuuri for getting that idol dick.
idk. I have a problem I think.
I’ve read a few of your analyses of the characters and scenes and I find them so interesting! Anyway, I was rewatching the last episode and was wondering what you thought about the scene after Yuuri’s FS when Victor informs Yakov that he’s coming back and then hugs Yuri. (Your thoughts on the hug specifically). Thank you!
Aw, thank you! I certainly try.
And I’ve always found moments between Victor and Yuri to be a bit difficult to understand. They seem to talk partially in words and partially through looks and actions. That makes interpreting it far more complicated, but I love an analyses challenge.
I think the hug was partially Victor trying to hide how truly upset he was with Yuuri’s possible retirement. I say this because just before the hug, Victor moves his face so to us, his eyes are covered. He’s hiding something, or trying to hide.


That smile looks sort of rueful to me as well, you know? A bit sad and bitter. Victor’s still angry that Yuuri wouldn’t listen to him or his desires; Yuuri kind of ignored how Victor truly felt and rushed off with half-truths and false interpretations. I would be frustrated, too.
Also, the only face we can see during the hug is Yuri’s. We can use his expression to figure out what Victor is communicating to him.



(That’s Otabek narrating, but we’ll get to that in a sec)
This is the first–and only–time in the series that Victor hugs Yuri. Clearly, this is serious. I think Yuri’s face during this sequence goes from angered desperation

to sadness

to understanding.

I think Victor is communicating to Yuri here, completely non-verbally, that he’s their last chance to keep Yuuri on the ice. As Victor said in ep10, he is not the only one to get his “L words” from Yuuri. Yuuri is their motivator, their inspiration, the person who makes them strive to skate better. Yuri understands that he can’t lose that.
Don’t forget what it is you want. Yuri wants to win, of course, but he wants to do it with Yuuri beside him. Yuri considers Yuuri to be his rival, and if there’s no one specifically to strive to beat, what’s the point? Victor experienced this himself, and look where it took him emotionally. They need Yuuri, on the ice and off it.
Yuri goes on to skate his FS with two goals in mind: win gold, and keep Yuuri on the ice.








I think he succeeds, yes?
So, to wrap up, Victor understood that he couldn’t verbally convince Yuuri to stay skating; it would take skating itself to make him stay. Victor couldn’t perform at the moment, so he went to Yuri, told him what was going on, and communicated how serious it was. Both Yuri and Victor knew that Yuuri wouldn’t stay if he won, so Yuri performed a routine beyond his capabilities to make Yuuri stay. And it sure as hell got to Yuuri.
This can be interpreted as kinda manipulative on Victor’s part; to essentially conspire to make his student lose, even if it wasn’t sabotage. But that’s what happened. Or, at least, what I think happened.